She of course was just blown away by my carefree 'tude with them gone. I chuckled and told her that at some point in life, you realize that in the end there will only be you to depend on. I feel blessed that I have Dirt Diver to share my life and struggles with, BUT there is never a 100% guarantee on marriage and life. If I can't function without him, then I can't function with him. And I am no good to myself, my children, or my husband if I can't handle being alone once in a while.